Don't Let It Get You Down: Essays on Race, Gender, and the Body

Savala Trepczynski knows what it means to live in the in-between. Descended from a Black and Mexican father and a white mother, Trepczynski's light complexion has always contrasted with her kinky hair and broad nose to make her mixed-race identity obvious, for better and worse. At her mother's encouragement, she began her first diet at the age of three and has been painfully thin and truly fat, multiple times. She has experienced both the discomfort of poverty and the ease of wealth.

It is these liminal spaces--of race, class, and body type--that the essays in Nearly, Not Quite excavate, presenting a clear and nuanced understanding of our society's most intractable points of tension. The twelve essays that comprise this collection are rich with unforgettable anecdotes, and are as humorous and as full of Trepczynski's appetites as they are of anxieties. The result is lyrical and magnetic.

In "On Dating White Guys While Me," Trepczynski realizes her early romantic pursuits of rich, preppy white guys weren't about preference, but about self-erasure. In "Don't Let it Get You Down," we traverse the cyclical richness and sorrow of being Black in America as Black children face police brutality, "large Black females" encounter stigma, and Black men carry the weight of other people's fear. In "Bad Education," we see how women learn to internalize rage and accept violence in order to survive. And in "To Wit and Also" we meet Filliss, Grace, and Peggy, the enslaved women owned by Trepczynski's white ancestors, reckoning with the knowledge that America's original sin lives intimately within our present stories. Over and over again, Trepczynski reminds us that our true identities are often most authentically lived not in the black and white, but in the grey of the in-between.

Perfect for fans of Heavy by Kiese Laymon and Bad Feminist by Roxane Gay, Nearly, Not Quite delivers an essential perspective on race, class, bodies, and gender in America today.