She Vs. Me: It Was the War Within For Me

The greatest war that you will ever fight against is who? Yup! You! Mind Vs. Heart. Flesh Vs. Spirit. Past Vs. Future. In my case, it was SHE VS. ME. Listen! Life became different when I figured out I could put a name to my hurt. "SHE" was my hurt. And I used SHE as a personal affectionate pronoun to get me by in life. Don't worry y'all. I'm not crazy...anymore: ). I needed a way of escape. I needed to name what was tearing me apart and causing ME to vanish. I didn't develop SHE to pass on the responsibility of my actions, but to separate the good from the bad. We all have experienced that bad, right? There was something in me that was fighting against what God's will was for my life. And I was determined to find it. SUICIDE tried to take me out. ANXIETY had me depressed. And being a LESBIAN had me confused and put my identity in a serious crisis. Oh, and it doesn't stop there. Life is so invigorating. And you can do with it what you please. Your choice. You can break yourself down in any way that you want to figure yourself out. I did. So, come and take a ride with me. Let's journey through this path of choices. Yes. Choice. It's a gift that is freely offered to us from God. Be careful though. It can come with serious consequences. Did you know that you can choose to be free? For years I walked around with chains on. And I had the key in my hand the whole time! Crazy, right? I Thank you for going on this journey with ME! As we go deeper you will be introduced to my ME-chanisms, those who made SHE and ME. So put your seatbelts on and buckle up buttercups! It's about to be a long ride...

 Sincerely, ME