Life of Traumatic Abuse

From a young age until his early thirties, Jensen was horribly abused by numerous males and some females. He lost his innocence at age two, at age six he was sexually attacked by two neighborhood boys. His step-dad, adoptive mother, gay boyfriends, and their friends; brutal attacks led to him needing protection.
In his late twenties, he became very depressed and suicidal; he was hospitalized for a few suicidal attempts. After being released from the hospital, he was once again horribly abused, but by a girlfriend (he attempted dating a woman); the girlfriend had male friends who helped her sexually and physically abuse him, horribly abused him.
After he was able to get away from her, he decided to no longer risk it. Jensen has severe PTSD from all the trauma in his life. It's hard for him to sleep at night, to trust anyone from the trauma in his life. For a few years, he popped pills and drank alcohol trying to cope with his hurt and pain.
He had no one and nothing to turn to, but his dreams of someone loving him and caring about him kept him going. He never found love and acceptance, now he has found comfort in silence and solitude. This is why he decided to write and share his story, as well as to try to send a message to those who may have been through similar or may be in a similar situation.